"Just As I Am"
Season 11, Episode 14
Air date February 10, 2005
Written by Lydia Woodward
Directed by Richard Thorpe
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Just As I Am is the 14th episode of the 11th season of "E.R."


Kerry is spending the day working in the ER when she meets her birth mother, who has disguised herself as a patient in order to meet Kerry: an evangelical Christian in town with her choir, she is deeply taken aback when she discovers that Kerry is gay.

In the meantime, Jake and Abby have trouble hiding their relationship at work, Pratt warily hands a patient over to Jane and Carter confronts a pair of Demerol junkies.

NBC DescriptionEdit

SHOCKED DR. WEAVER FINALLY MEETS HER BIRTH MOTHER - FRANCES FISHER GUEST-STARS: Dr. Weaver (Laura Innes) encounters an evasive patient (Frances Fisher, "Titanic") who shocks her by revealing that she is her birth mother, who put her baby up for adoption at 15.

As they spend time sharing their life stories, their budding relationship withers when Weaver confesses to her mother (an evangelical Christian) that she is gay.

Elsewhere, Dr. Pratt (Mekhi Phifer) warily turns over an addled elderly woman to the care of Jane (Sara Gilbert) while Dr. Carter (Noah Wyle) causes a commotion when he confronts a couple hoping to scam some painkilling drugs.

Sherry Stringfield, Goran Visnjic, Maura Tierney, Linda Cardellini, Parminder Nagra, Eion Bailey and Shane West also star. TV-14


  • Sissy Spacek was originally cast as Kerry Weaver's mother Helen Kingsley, however, according to a February 7, 2005 article from, she dropped out at the last minute due to "scheduling conflicts."
  • After nine in a half years, we finally find out why Kerry uses a cane: a birth defect, congenital hip dysplasia.


Kerry: People are starving, people are being shot at, men are flying planes into buildings, yet the "faithful" are saying, "watch out for those lesbians! They're gonna destroy our god-gifted lives."
[During a fight, Neela picks up a bedpan to use as a weapon]
Neela: What the hell am I doing?
[Kerry walks by]
Kerry: Who's winning?
Sam: Neela was about to deck somebody with a bedpan.
Jerry: I've always wanted to see something like that.
Sam: It's hard to let go of a dream, isn't it, Jerry?
Abby (to Jake): In what possible universe would I say the words "Let's polka?"
Jake: I'm telling you. In your sleep, two nights ago. Look, I'm not making this up. You don't think I was surprised?
Abby: I don't talk in my sleep.
Jake: How do you know?
Abby: Even if I did, I wouldn't say "polka." I wouldn't even say "dance." I don't dance. Well, maybe once when I was a kid, I did the limbo.
Jake: Yeah, maybe that was it. Maybe it was the limbo.

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